Everything and Nothing is Happening Right Now

 

I’m excited but I’m nervous.

Nothing is happening.

I’m worried but yolo.

Please stop getting ahead of yourself. Why are you having any emotions?! There is nothing actually happening here.

I’m lost but I’m hopeful, baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything’s gonna be fine, fine, fine.

Oh good god….pathetic.

This year was an interesting one for me and instead of doing a review of my year, I thought I’d just repeat history for you- live!

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So here we are, well into January, and almost exactly around this time last year was the very beginning of this epic fustercluck. I had all the feelings because I had two potential leases on the table and was going to have to make a decision. Much hand-wringing ensued and a decision was made! I leased the little gray dressage horse and had fun, fun, fun, until mommy took my T-bird away.

Are you having a stroke? …

I truly did have a blast riding Tyco but sometimes I wonder if I’d have been better off never choosing this lease. On the one hand: I was riding four days a week and I was happy; On the other hand: being too high, dropped me pretty low. My mistake was not mentally factoring in the other parts of the equation. I thought the situation would be longer term so when T’s owner had to move him home with her not even two months later- I broke. I handle my shit pretty well on the outside so no one really knew (and truthfully, it even surprised me) how deeply the situation affected me. Conveniently around the same time frame, work started to get…different. That’s what Minnesotans say when they don’t like something: “that’s different”. So work got very different and then my only outlet got cut back to once a week at most. There were months where I only got to ride once. This is a heavy load to bear when it’s not your choice to cease an activity. Logic says “just find another lease!” but logic clearly doesn’t live in this area. All in all, 2015 was a bit of a bummer.

Emo pizza cuts itself. Get over yourself, this is 2016!

 

I am back on track and in good spirits leading into the new year. I am making no resolutions or horse related goals at this point, but I have chosen to focus on wellness this year- in all of its facets.

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Tonight my lesson may or may not be a special one as I may or may not be trying a horse that I may or may not lease. Also, the blogosphere is a very kind, small, network and I have been given details on another potential lease.

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I know that you’ve hurt in the past, but if you want it, here’s my heart, no strings attached!

What?! inner monologues like to have a little fun too.

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It may seem like I really am back where I started a year ago, but things have changed now, and I have very healthy perspective that I did not have last year. Right now, I am just going to let things play out a little. Don’t worry, I won’t need as much hand holding this time around. In fact, I think it’s best if this is the most I say on the matter for a while.

Right! Because, again, nothing is happening.

Just know there is some behind-the-scenes action going on in the EquiNovice realm and you all will be the first to know if, indeed, anything actually happens!!

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(heart)broken

 

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Navicular.

 

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ugh. These four-leggers just rip your heart out, don’t they? Don’t mind me, I’ll just be over here wallowing and trying to decide what one (and by one, I mean a partial-leaser) even says/does to help.

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I also just realized that lately this blog reads so much more like a soap opera than my boring real life merits. When I first started considering this lease I had no idea it would also require learning to mogul ski.

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So-So

My lesson rides have felt great lately, like I am just on the verge of making a big move. My solo rides on T, however have been pretty lackluster lately and I just can’t seem to find our groove.

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I am optimistic that things will click again shortly…but I’m feeling just a little impatient about it. His owner has been hyping how fabulous he will be now that he got his pastern injected for some relief of an old injury and now that he’s got shoes all around. She said he’d feel like a new horse and I guess I bought in. Maybe I’ve just been unlucky and my rides were on days where for whatever reason he wasn’t feeling it. As soon as we have that next good ride, I’ll know that’s what it was- but for right now, I’d rather have the old Tyco.

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He’s looking pretty good lately after finally shedding his winter coat. He’s still delightfully plump but looking much more sleek these days.

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I rode on Saturday before the storms blew in and everything started out pretty well as we warmed up. I focused on stilling my body and supporting my own torso and we did some long figure 8s and shorter figure 8s. As we can all see, I am bracing in the halt above despite diligently trying to break myself of that habit. sigh…

I picked up a trot out of a nicely balanced walk and things felt kinda rough. I assumed he was just stiff so I asked for a little bigger trot along the rail. He got his coughs out and took a few nice strides in a row so I thought we were going to be good. We walked a little more and trotted again. It still felt rough- almost like he was taking a canter stride every once in a while with his front end. I trotted around, switched directions, hoping we would find a rhythm but he kept throwing in those weird steps. Finally I decided to get off and free lunge him around to see if I could actually see what was happening but of course he looked great without his incompetent rider.

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Things don’t look very good going to the right, so I know there is a good amount of crookedness left to work on.

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Everything looked normal to me for the most part. He did stumble a couple of times usually in a downward transition. Could he still be getting used to his shoes? He’s not a clumsy horse.

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                  Here he is rolling his ankle and almost taking a giant digger.

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I get to ride him again on Tuesday so I’ll be looking forward to a positive ride.

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             His real mom works at Butler and he’d like it stated for the record that he was coerced.

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Snow Whiting…the verb

The weather did not cooperate this weekend for a ride and yesterday was not much better. I did get a short ride in last night with no spooks despite the wind/rain. Unfortunately, T was off again, so we did a shorter ride and mostly walked with a little bit of canter to let him stretch.

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BUT, since I got to spend some time with him unmounted and we eventually had the barn to ourselves I learned that Tyco ABSOLUTELY ADORES the resident barn cat. I know, I know…pics or it didn’t happen but omfg it was the most adorable thing!!! The cat was obviously in the arena to instruct us in the art of dressage, but then after our “lesson” I coaxed him over with the promise of some attention. Tyco has, of course, seen the cat before and I had every indication that he would be friendly so I let them get to know each other. Tyco was so gentle and very interested in sniffing the cat and slowly following him around.

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After I untacked and curried, we had like a solid five minute cuddle huddle where I held the cat as he purred and purred and Tyco snuffled us both all over and gently lipped both of our faces. It was a Disney movie.

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This is me, basically.

                                                                  This is me, basically.

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This is from a few weeks ago, and I know the cat looks like he is NOT interested but Tyco's face is so precious.

This is from a few weeks ago, and I know the cat looks like he is NOT interested but  that’s probably because of how my friend is holding him…who holds a cat like that?! Tyco’s face is so precious though. 

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I don’t have any pets right now because of my nutty work life so forgive my eye-roll worthy gushing- I just have to get my weekly fix, okay! Does your horse have an animal friend?

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I will ride again on Thursday, hopefully he is sound and we can get in a good workout!

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                                               A gray in his natural habitat. (post-roll, of course)

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His owner is having his joint injected next Wednesday so I’m hoping he feels more comfortable in a couple of weeks.

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Love that Spanish Blood

Last week took me to Colombia again for work. Many emoticon hearts for how much I love my job <3. But the traveling does make it tough to keep up with blogland. Refreshing Feedly (yes, I have now arrived as I am no longer using Emma’s blog list as my personal RSS feed) is like cracking open a newspaper in the morning and with the demands of work (le sigh) it was impossible not to fall behind. It sometimes seems like a full-time job reading everyone’s blog, but they are really like the best novel, reference book, and life manual all rolled into one. Never go away, k?

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I did some fun things while in Bogota: I ate too much great food; drank the local fire water; miserably failed to dance even a passable cumbia; spoke plenty of spanish; smuggled in a wedding dress from the states for my Costa Rican coworker; watched doctors throw money around like Pablo Escobar; visited a massive church built inside a salt mine; licked the wall of a salt mine (I was curious, okay…); bought a beautiful emerald ring; ate hotdogs at 4am from a street cart with a prominent Mexican vascular surgeon; danced in hell; and did a metric ton of work (incase it wasn’t clear whether this was a vacation or not).

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repent

  repent

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...then dance in hell.  Shoot, I definitely did this in the wrong order...

…then dance in hell.
Shoot, I definitely did that in the wrong order.

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wall licking

      wall licking, mmmm salty!

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Oh yes, back to this guy!

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Last night I rode Tyco for the first time in a week. His owner did get out there to ride him at least once while I was gone and he got a pedicure so I had high expectations that it was going to be a good ride. He was a total rockstar. We had some stellar transitions and he felt pretty light most of the time. He is unlike any of the horses I have ever ridden in that he can get super rushy but he’s not really hot per se, so I am trying my best to figure him out. We will make a brilliant transition: prompt and light and then like 5 strides later he just starts accelerating and taking tiny sewing machine steps even though I feel like I am not asking for more speed. It could be that I am leaning and he is just more sensitive to that than the horses I am used to riding. He gets so fast I feel like I can’t even half-halt, or I do, but it comes out more like a halt-halt and he doesn’t rebalance, he stops. He is teaching me that maybe I can’t just “set it and forget it”. More half-halts are the key. Identifying that moment when he is considering rushing and half-halting and then probably doing it again a couple of strides later just for good measure. And probably adding in some lateral work since it is easy for him. I had been trying not to pull on the reins when he started to rush but we get so out of sync so fast that it was hard to use my seat to get him back once I had lost him. This part is still a work in progress, but I think we’re heading in the right direction. Do any of you have a rushy horse? What exercises have worked for you?

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He does his own hair.

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And then there was this…because clean is still overrated.

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Why, EquiNovice, what a lovely clean gray horse you have there!

                     Why, EquiNovice, what a lovely, clean, gray horse you have there!

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bahahaha stoopid human...

                                        What?! You said you like tall, dark, and handsome!

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